Saturday, October 28, 2006
wrecked on you
it's been a very trying year, this 2006, and as we crest into autumn, it just feels like the end is near. The end of a very bad year. There have been highs, along with the lows. It's been extreme, no real middle ground. I'm feeling lost in a swirling morass of bad vibes. The leaves hang on the trees in their various colorful states, tiny little audiences to the despair of the world before falling to the ground to be absorbed into decay. My heart is changing colors, too. From green to blue to brown to black. A black hole in my chest filled with nothing but creeping despair. Winter is right on the horizon and it will be a bitter, cold, bleak five months of sordid days and nights, the blackness killing the light.